i have a confession.
maybe it's silly to say, but i want to document this somewhere.
i have a crush and after wanting to pound myself all day (because i was mostly annoyed by this tangling feeling of liking), i have decided it's okay to have a crush.
in my mind, i feel like i've created me having a crush childish and stupid - time consuming really, because i have a tendency to obsess. however, my mind cleared up after being foggy and i realized, it's okay to like a person. who even from the little i have learned about him find appearing. i am attracted to him in all sorts of ways, which kinda scares me.
i guess, it's easier for me to just try and shut down my feelings because i don't want to find out either one of these two realities is true: 1) he has a girlfriend, or 2) he's not even close to liking me in the same way back.
but right now, i've only been in the same proximity as him twice. i've gotten a taste of his character. it's okay to like him - to be attracted. now, it's just time to get to know him - if the chance lends up.
if not, it's okay.
maybe it's silly to say, but i want to document this somewhere.
i have a crush and after wanting to pound myself all day (because i was mostly annoyed by this tangling feeling of liking), i have decided it's okay to have a crush.
in my mind, i feel like i've created me having a crush childish and stupid - time consuming really, because i have a tendency to obsess. however, my mind cleared up after being foggy and i realized, it's okay to like a person. who even from the little i have learned about him find appearing. i am attracted to him in all sorts of ways, which kinda scares me.
i guess, it's easier for me to just try and shut down my feelings because i don't want to find out either one of these two realities is true: 1) he has a girlfriend, or 2) he's not even close to liking me in the same way back.
but right now, i've only been in the same proximity as him twice. i've gotten a taste of his character. it's okay to like him - to be attracted. now, it's just time to get to know him - if the chance lends up.
if not, it's okay.
